MissDerpDark

For as long as I can remember I’ve always had this void in my life,  It’s this empty feeling deep deep inside of you, that you can’t quite shake - no matter how hard you try. It sort of consumes and eats away at you,  You’ll have great happy moments and just when you thought everything was fine - surprise!  The feeling always comes back, it’s just a matter of time.  The constant frustration to fill this void, something to ease the pain. What’s the cause? Nobody knows, Yet you feel the same sad emptiness every single day It leaves me feeling so empty and down  like I’m missing something somehow something that’s a big part of me and once I have it, I’ll be happy I just need that one thing, this missing key, and when I get my hands on it, I’ll be complete. I’ve tried everything - friends, education, material stuff, but no matter how hard I try, it never seems to be enough, It sucks, and I know people will say that you just need to be positive, or the solution to all o

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I don't even know what I feel right now I don't even know how to react anymore I don't even know how long will it takes Will it stay? Will it go? It all felt nothing It all felt up to creek It all felt empty The questions of "why" are still remain unanswered But somehow, it still hurts; so much.

What goes around comes back around... There was a time I thought, that you did everything right No lies, no wrong Boy I must've been out of my mind So when I think of the time that I almost loved you You showed your ass and I, I saw the real you Thank God you blew it I thank God I dodged the bullet I'm so over you So baby good lookin' out [Chorus:] I wanted you bad I'm so through with that 'Cause honestly you turned out to be the (best thing I never had) You turned out to be the (best thing I never had) And I'm gonna' always be the (best thing you never had) Oh yeah, I bet it sucks to be you right now So sad, you're hurt Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care You don't deserve my tears I guess that's why they ain't there When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you You showed your ass and baby yes I saw the real you I know you want me back It's time to face the facts That I'm the on

Thank you. Thank you for all the joy Thank you for all the tears Thank you for the memories Thank you for the time Thank you for everything Thank you. Thank you for the love Thank you for the disapointment Thank you for the almost 2 year time of happiness Thank you for the 2 weeks of lies Thank you for everything Thank you. Thank you for the lies Thank you for the fake tears Thank you for the fake excuses Thank you for the fake reasons Thank you for everything It still hurts; I mean who doesn't? But you're not even worth my tears anymore You just prove that everybody's words are right When at that time I didn't buy any of it. I don't know what to believe. But baby you just prove them right. But it still hurts. It's funny When you thought you already knew that particular person; then the fact is you know nothing. When you let the time answered all your questions instead of asking When you are just realize that you are just woken up