MissDerpDark

December 2020, We met You were once the best thing happened to me that year You were the light in my dark days You gave me something I never felt before Those things remains there, till yesterday February 2021, I made a mistake We decided to break for a while You were still the light in my dark days You still gave me something I never felt before Those things remains there, till yesterday March 2021, You decided to give us another chance  "I'm arrived at your lobby" -the first message after we break.  You brought the light in my dark days You gave me something I never felt before Those things remains there, till yesterday You, The one who I thought would be my forever The one who I thought would never hurt me in purpose The one who I thought would always tell me the truth The one who I always defend in front of my family and friends The one who always in my mind day and night The one who always be there on my darkest day The one who never forgets to say "I love you&q

I'm not a great writer. Heck, can't even call myself a writer. But this, is one of my way to express my feeling. -- I never feel this grateful for meeting someone new My life has been dark and twisty You came, like a flash of light Bring out the joy and happiness in your presence and somehow, I smile a lot more So, thank you. It's weird; this feeling you make me Like I found something that I lost, things I didn't even know that I lost them in the first place I feel connected I feel loved So, thank you. Wise man say, only fool rush in But somehow, it doesn't feel like a rush I don't know what does it call what am I feeling right now All I know, I want to feel this feeling you make for the rest of my life So, thank you. It feels overwhelming Like my feelings are through the roof Like you bring the last piece of a puzzle that I've been looking for You make me complete You make me believe, again So, thank you I'm not the type of person who ask people to stay

They told me that I was meant for the cleaner life that you would drag me through the mud They said that you would tread all over me that they could see right through you that you were full of hot air that I would always be chasing Always watching you disappear after sleeker models that would be a vicious cycle But I know better. I know about your rough edges and I have seen your perfect curves I will fit into whatever space you’ll let me If loving you meant getting dirty, bring on the grime I will leave this porcelain hole behind I’m used to twice a day relationships  but with you I’d take all the time And I know we live in different worlds and we’re always really busy but in my dreams you spin around me so fast I always wake up dizzy So maybe one day you’ll grow tired of the road and roll on back to me and when I blink my eyes into one morning your smile will be the only one I see

The crinkle by your eyes The dimple as you smile The peace within your laugh Things I thought was my home Place where I find peace Turns to be the calm before the storm Now I'm left alone Facing the storm coming in Yet, two hands is all I got I need yours, too

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Dear You, Sorry , if I'm so messed up and have lots of issues Sorry , if it's hard for me to show all my cards on the table Sorry , if I get scared all the time Sorry , if I'm not an easy person to deal with If somehow in the days to come, you ever feel less than what you feel right now; to me; us Please , don't keep it to yourself and find other ways to cover that hole If you have something that don't like about me Please , talk to me about it Despite the consequences of the talk; good or bad Things unsaid will make a time bomb which will explode at no time Thank you for making me happy in a way I haven't felt for quite a long time Thank you for seeing and accepting me for who I am Despite of all my plenteous flaws Thank you for being the place of me being vulnerable You are every hope I've ever had in human form

Japanese method for repairing broken pottery with GOLD Repairing things people disguise to and change it to something that is even more beautiful You, Bring the gold as you smile and simply for being exist, again with your silly little jokes repairing things I disguise to and change it to something that is even more beautiful You, With all the pain world has given you Somehow managed to make GOLD our of it and resuscitate these butterflies repairing things I disguise to and change it to something that is even more beautiful When people say what is broken will forever stay broken, tell them this story.

I just had a really weird dream.. (aren't they all?) Jadi, long story short gue habis ngomongin one of my ex in senior high school to my friend saat di kantor Mungkin jadi kepikiran kali ya, so here it is! Jadi pokoknya tiba-tiba tuh gue udah lari-lari gitu, dikejar hal yang gue kira alien lewating gedung-gedung gitu. dan gue sempet kayak nge- glimpse orang masuk ke satu gedung yang gue rasa sangat aneh cara masuknya Ujung-ujungnya tiba-tiba gue sampe kantor, terus gue ngantor (?) pas pulang kantor gue naik shuttle kantor dan tiba-tiba lewating gedung aneh itu Yaudah dong gue turun disitu, gatau kenapa, rasanya penasaran aja sama gedung itu Terus pas udah turun, gue ngikutin orang yang kemarin masu kke gedung itu Tapi cara masuknya aneh, bukan dari pintu. Gedung itu tuh kayak di tutupin kardus gitu di sekeliling nya dan cara masuknya tuh kayak dari sela-sela kardusnya gitu.. Pasas gue masuk, di dalemnya tuh malah kayak rumah, di sekat sekat gitu ada ruang-ruang d