What is Us Exactly?

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 I feel the distance.

You’ve carved with silence.

Is it just me?

Or is there really space where something once lived?

What is us exactly?


Adhit,

You deserve to be loved by someone who knows who you are. 

The whole you. 

Not an idea. 

Not a version. 

I thought I could be that person. 

Now, I’m not sure anymore. 

Now, the happiness no longer outweighs the sad.

What is us exactly?


I stand on an edge. 

I don’t know how long I can stay on. 

Holding on. 

Thinking of letting go. 

It’s terrifying down there. 

The fall. 

The after. 

The unknown. 

Does that make me the definition of insanity?

What is us exactly?


You were never mine. 

I was never yours. 

So again, answer me;

What is us exactly?

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