This is Me
This is me moving on
This is me accepting the ache of missing you
This is me waking up every single single day, aware of what is missing
but accepting of the fact that this is my life now,
that this is the way things are going to be
This is me understanding that it is okay to have my heartbeat speak your name
This is me understanding that it is okay to miss someone who was once such a staple in my life
But this is also me understanding that life does go on
That one day I will hear a songs and smile,
I will sleep in my sheets and they will no longer smell like you;
one day I will fall in love again, one day I will look back on this and my hands will not shake with the heaviness of it all
This is me moving on
This is me accepting the fact that we will no longer make memories together
This is me coming to terms with the reality of a future without you
This is me understanding that you will do everything we had ever spoken about --
You will live a life you are proud of, you will become the person you told me you hoped you could be,
you will take the trips, you will experience all of the things you wanted to experience, you will love --
deeply, and wholly and with every inch of your patchwork heart, but all of that will happen without me by your side
This is me moving on
This is me accepting that sometimes beautiful things end
This is me understanding that there is nothing I can say, or do, to fix that
This is me coming to terms with the face that sometimes leaving is an act of love, too
That sometimes you have to walk away from someting soft and hauntingly real,
that sometimes hearts don't align
But this is me accepting that endings don't have to be messy
This is me understanding how incredible it really is --
that for a moment in time, in a world of billions, two strangers were in the right place, at the right time, and something transpired between them
This is my heart swelling with the thought --
that at one point in time, we were the lucky ones
At one point in time, we beat the odds
This is me accepting the ache of missing you
This is me waking up every single single day, aware of what is missing
but accepting of the fact that this is my life now,
that this is the way things are going to be
This is me understanding that it is okay to have my heartbeat speak your name
This is me understanding that it is okay to miss someone who was once such a staple in my life
But this is also me understanding that life does go on
That one day I will hear a songs and smile,
I will sleep in my sheets and they will no longer smell like you;
one day I will fall in love again, one day I will look back on this and my hands will not shake with the heaviness of it all
This is me moving on
This is me accepting the fact that we will no longer make memories together
This is me coming to terms with the reality of a future without you
This is me understanding that you will do everything we had ever spoken about --
You will live a life you are proud of, you will become the person you told me you hoped you could be,
you will take the trips, you will experience all of the things you wanted to experience, you will love --
deeply, and wholly and with every inch of your patchwork heart, but all of that will happen without me by your side
This is me moving on
This is me accepting that sometimes beautiful things end
This is me understanding that there is nothing I can say, or do, to fix that
This is me coming to terms with the face that sometimes leaving is an act of love, too
That sometimes you have to walk away from someting soft and hauntingly real,
that sometimes hearts don't align
But this is me accepting that endings don't have to be messy
This is me understanding how incredible it really is --
that for a moment in time, in a world of billions, two strangers were in the right place, at the right time, and something transpired between them
This is my heart swelling with the thought --
that at one point in time, we were the lucky ones
At one point in time, we beat the odds
-Bianca Sparacino
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