Kemaren, pulang sekolah jam set12. Dan pg mulai jam 4 -_- Gue sama intan saking malesnya balik dulu, kita langsung goes ke PG. Dan kebetulan gue lagi beli monopoli. Dan akhirnya gue, intan sama mba Rini pun main monopoli di ruang 101. Permainan dimulai dengan mengocok dadu dan pembagian uang $.$ yap seperti biasa. Dan permainan mulai memanas ketika gue beli brazil, kanada, sama amerika serikat, dan gua beli 2 rumah untuk masing-masing.... itu ranjau abis hahahahahahahahaha dan ini lah hasil akhir permainan kita MINE: Jumlahnya $337.300 Dan ini lah jumlah harta guee INTAN'S Yang ini totalnya $228.500 Dan inilah pejuang-pejuang yang mewakili gue sama Intan di medan Monopoli Ki-ka: co-Shilla, co-Intan
I feel the distance. You’ve carved with silence. Is it just me? Or is there really space where something once lived? What is us exactly? Adhit, You deserve to be loved by someone who knows who you are. The whole you. Not an idea. Not a version. I thought I could be that person. Now, I’m not sure anymore. Now, the happiness no longer outweighs the sad. What is us exactly? I stand on an edge. I don’t know how long I can stay on. Holding on. Thinking of letting go. It’s terrifying down there. The fall. The after. The unknown. Does that make me the definition of insanity? What is us exactly? You were never mine. I was never yours. So again, answer me; What is us exactly?
Here I am. 1 a.m. My body is asking for rest, but my eyes refuse to listen. There is something restless in me tonight, a quiet insistence, a realization still warm in my chest. This might be the first time I write about happiness without feeling like I'm betraying my pain. I haven't been okay lately. Life didn't fall apart. Only the part where love lives. Grief found me anyway. It settled into my days, made a home in my chest. I learned how to mourn without permission, how to ache without an ending. So I ran from it. I built routines like walls. I tried to rewire my thoughts, distract my heart, outrun the feeling. Anything, as long as I didn't have to sit with it. I wouldn't have survived this without my friends. They didn't try to fix me. They didn't rush my healing. They simply stayed. They let me spill the same stories, again and again, like repetition might finally soften the truth. They celebrated the smallest victories. "Today, I washed the dishe...
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